Unexpected...

Unexpected is a word that can be positive.... 

For instance, an unexpected phone call, an unexpected gift from a new friend, an unexpected book accompanied by a very kind note. Coincidentally, all three have recently happened to me. Yesterday's phone call from  Kevin's Uncle Robby definitely added sunshine to our day. You can call whenever you'd like to! Jenny, a new friend, sent me the DVD copy of Bill Cosby's comedy act I mentioned in a prior blog entry. Now I can escape to laughter whenever I need! The book with kind note from Lynne. Her kind words and thoughtfulness brought an unexpected smile to my day.  

Unexpected is also a word that can be quite confusing....unsettling of sorts. Sometimes even negative feelings can surround this word. 

I can't seem to shake this unexpected "nothing reaction." 

Basically what I'm trying to say is I'm pissed off. If one was being honest then I guess I'd have to say I'm a lot pissed off. 

You know the old saying all it takes is a little crisis for people to show their true colors. Well, clearly heart failure falls into this category. 

Let me say this: I AM and probably will always BE speechless at how our friends, family, & co-workers on three different continents reached out to me, my boys, and Kevin. Overwhelmed by the support, the love, thoughts, prayers, and positive energy we've been receiving since that horrible night in October. How amazing everyone has STEPPED up to the plate and how they continue to do so.... 

What I didn't expect were the few individuals that took me by surprise AFTER Kevin came home.  It's unsettling and very unexpected that said individuals in today's day & age can't take five minutes to pick up a phone, send an email, type a text message, something...... are you really that busy to tell someone you care? Have you seen my life lately? No, you haven't. But I'm sure you've heard because I know you've asked. Several have told me to "just let it go Tracy." Others have told me "to pick up the phone or make contact first." I've got news for you... I did and I'm done. 

I'm sure a few of you reading are thinking that I expect everyone to call, email or text... WRONG. 

I do however expect something from people that have known me my entire life though..and I absolutely expect blood to recognize. Wouldn't you?  

I figured if I blog about this I might get some sort of closure. Like any other blog entry, this will be most cathartic once I click "publish post."

For now, I WILL move forward. I will no longer let this topic rent space in my brain. I've got bigger & better things to take on... like Mr. Insurance for starters. 

Eliminate the negative. Accentuate the positive.